Outsider

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 You  were  no  Ceasor born to come see and conquer
You wished to be closer i let you wished not to disclose i let you
Your Bureau of Statistics and I was there – guided, directed
and you knewall the while,  I was the stranger  to u 
Yelling For Just A Hint Of Attention, Yet not  a loner 
Standing Outside The Crowd, Trying To Come In just  to be with you
And your smooth talk was always practiced
and distinct
I made every effort -eager, naïve and persistent -but your sofistacations ruled you
Like Im Not There. Like Only I Know Im There my identity  had not  name  or no body even cared 
My was nearing its discover by a  persistent name”outsider”and a shifted to  the  perphery with careful disregard

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Rain

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Even the sky needs to to cry sometimes let it rain.
Let it break free and wash away my long hidden pain,
Let it sooth the heat,let it rain all day 
Falling from the burdened clouds of mourning grey.
Let earth bath ,Let life bloom,Let the torrent force the wind to stay,
Let not the shower stop ,As i have been in tears all day
Let my skin wrung wet ,Let my soul wash with its soothing chill,
Let the clouds stay just the way it does,when mud embrace the sodden hill.
Let it rain melding the barrier of torrential fears ,
Let not the world know, let it wash away my sneaking tears
Let not the light refrain the chill of clouds and saddend eye,
As miles are left to travell, wrapped in a raincoat of laten cry.

Distance

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                            DISTANCE

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Clinging to the pain Without fear Never in regret
Merely to feel I have a soul.
I Merely felt i had a life ,I Merely felt loved
They say to let go To blanket my life
In forgiveness And take my next step
But i merely knew how a part of my was never
Lost in boldly walked away ,it eloped.

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Sometimes I imagine the distance as time
time that engulfs all bridges, all ports,
the decks of ships and the lighthouses standing still optionless,
I visualize it as wild and rowdy as the water during a cyclone. I picturise its insatiable hunger, I watch it flare up The distance is a footpath of farewell, a highway of hopelessness standing clueless

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My Paintings

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Name:Lonely

This painting is the inspiration behind my composition Emptiness

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Innocense

Innocense : innocence to me is more photogenic and artistic than elegance

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Woman by Soumita

Woman: This Painting is a tribute to every shade of womanhood.People say that this girl in the painting looks a lot like me.

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Salvation1

Salvation

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Mother’s love

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Sunflower

Sunflower

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You created us and we create your idol

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Half Forgotten

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Salvation 2

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Never Let it Go

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Calla lily

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What if the road never ends

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The Taj (Mumbai )Blasts

Tram: Kolkata’s one of the Oldest Pride

Our city of joy our ,our Pride!! But people born in thsymbolizes. 8 .development ardly knows about the city’s oneIn fact ie oldest Pride…
In a recent bengalee movie Shreya Ghosal sang a song “Chol Rastay Shaji Tramline”
But in the frantic rat race of our daily life do we really travel in Tram??
I know for most of us the answer is “Not Really”!
In fact the city is retiring the trams in order to meet its growing transportation needs.It is quite true that its nearly 21 trams that plies across this city
CTC recently introduced Charaibati ,the a/c tram.But it is pretty occasional rather rare.If You visits CTC’s Nonapukur Workshop you can know about trams.Under a huge factory shade there,surrounded by the wreckage of phased-out trams,three wonder trams stands namely Balaka ,Banala,Chaibati. These three are basically remembered for occasion use or to serve the need of a film script
Balaka is named after Tagore’s Collection of Poetry while Banalata too is blessed with literary Touch.Poet Jibananando Das was killed by a speeding tram near DeshaPriya Park tramlines .His Famous poem Banalata Sen is the reason behind Banalata’s naming.

Unfortunalety this fascinated historic mode of transport that plied along the streets and lanes  is becoming obsolate.
From Satyajit Ray’s Mahanagar to Buddhadeb Das Gupta’s Grihayuddhya tollywood’s connection with trams is pretty old.If  we take a look at Bollywood Kareena Kapoor Khan Traveling in tram in the Movie Yuva by Mani Ratnam,Sujoy Ghosh’s Kahani also shows Vidya in Tram.
 First Attempt of Running Tram was taken in 1873 to travel from
Sealdah to American Ghat.But it proved to be inadequate to serve the purpose.In 1880 CTC was formed .Meter-guage horse drawn track was laid from Sealdah to american ghat.It was inaugerated by Lord Ripon(Vice Roy).The developrnt in tje system was followed by Steam locomotives in 1882.Finally in Asia electric trams plied in 1902 .reconstruction took place for the tracks Kalighat to tollyguange extention took place followed by connecting Esplanade and Begachia
A replica of Horse-Drawn Tram can be seen at saltlake city Center
 We all know that trams are not a fast mode of transport but this
Is one of the oldest transport in the city.Infact  it symbolises the developement and heritage of the City of Joy since british rule.We love our trams the nostalgic thing this trasport can give
No other super decorated technologically advanced vehicle can. Some aspect are connected to heart and our ‘bengalee sentiments’ is’nt it?

She does’nt need you for her happiness she can find it on her own:she is with you because she loves You

We often complain about life and agony aunts keep assuring that life is not a bed of roses good times will come.Trust me ,I have been through this keeping Patience seems to be the hardest thing under the sun .It took me pretty long to realize that good time will never approach like a dancing waves that approach the sea shore.Happiness is one of the inbuilt quality all of us are born with ,but only a few of us can utilize.
Girls are emotional we all know.Sometimes when  a girl breaks a guys heart and abandons his life they need another girl to fill the void.But the one filling the void is a princess when she approaches his life.She is treated like her imperfections are perfectly negligible to be overlooked.She is then given a lot of pet names and convinced to believe that she is enough beautiful and desirable to blow his mind.Soon the void fills up everything falls in place ,his abandonment has finally filed a divorce ready to be signed by him.Seems like living in Paradise right?
Wait wait ! She was not an insomniac before she met him ,now she can’t simply sleep without pills.She had a circle out friend with “don’t give a shit to the world attitude” now she goes shopping alone .Tries her best to choose  clothes that perfectly hides her neck line ,showing an inch above knees!! Crazy!!! Reason enough for a break up babe he’s gonna turn crazy. Her language is now full on shakesepearish lol! His circle judges her upbringing by the funky languages she utters ,after all they are so sober(read: still consumes lactogen 1 as staple food )

And He??? His life is perfect loneliness seems like a joke now.No no not because he has someone to love him unconditionally.His work load is ridiculous these days,he works in same company same designation .Work load is what is not leaving him free! She got used to with his attention and still craves for it! But who cares his lonely life’s void has been filled when he needed and its human nature of 21st century to get and forget.Now that he has changed her habbits and expectations She is suddenly judged as annoying. She cares too much ‘attention monger”! Isnt she? She wants your company ‘clingy girl’ .The girls in the malls are better a’nt they?Now he thinks why does she part her hair this way not like that girl,oh that girl’s complections better to fit this dress .
Trust me she is not born to take all these problem is not in her problem is right there in your up bringing
Honestly You deserve much more ignorance than you are showing her.She made your life normal when you did not even want to live the abandoned life.Your work ? Do you even remember that you lost all hopes and confidence ? Today you are giving great output because she came like an angel and gave you the normal life you have now.I understand work is important ,trust me you have enough time when you have to give it because you friendshave planed a sudden trip.You do have time to organise a party for a friend or visiting some faraway relative is suddenly important.Yes i agree they exist in you life before she entered.But the question is if they are important enough to deprive her of the time only she deserves ,then you could not they made your life normal when you were broken? Why did you needed her then? Or she is some fever remetion medicine fever is not more you have to stop taking it now health drinks can protect your immunity..?
What if She suddenly behaves the same as you do?
pathetic!! Is’nt it?
Worst part what if her life suddenly becomes good as yours? I know you lady cousin’s girl friends have amazing hair ,figure and blessed with natural features .They are better qualified and  have good convient office timings you kbow ,some of their colleges come so damn on you way home that you guys cannot simply help but end up meeting.
 Believe me bro her cousin brother’s friends are actually dieing to date (read :can treat her atleast better than you) .You have a good and thats making you treat her as amaturist sometimes .But as i told you some of her cousin’s guy friends CV can even give your boss inferiority complex.Trust me they actually know she is ahead of many qualified men.Yes your cousin’s girl friend praises your sense of humour! Wanna know why? Because she is not impolite you gave her so many compliments that returning some was her modestly not inclination grow up.Coolest thing Her cousin’s may be intelligent enough to discover that hidden talent of hers that you never bothered to notice.Well yeah again point a finger at her !common do it!! She is an introvert who opened up to a stranger! Lol 😀
The fact is you are not as cool as you friends say you are! You are actually a kid in large size who preffers playing with a stone  instead of diamond.
You would not understand it initially
When you will loose her attachment step by step you will feel how bad it feel to stroll along the lones of darkness you belonged once.She is not playing with your feelings.She is dettaching the strings of attachment one after the other,it is only because you gave her too much pain and now she has learnt to live without you.You will see her habbits ,attire and way of interacting with your circle as well as reacting to ypu behaviour going through a drastistic change.Your staring at some sexy chic was once followed by her cold stare ,the fights and mood offs ,may now when you are literally checking out some girl she is too busy with her smart phone or latest gadget.Now when poke her pointing some girl about weight hair or anything she might busy with the cosmetic store or cd store the women is standing in front of.
Be happy with who you are with.Not every guy is blessed with presentable persons who made their life beautiful.Yes your mom gave birth to you but when your life was abandoned your hopes all shattered ,you seemed  to be nearing mental death,She gave you a second life.
She gathered those broken pieces of your heart.
The Girls your friend call “Bitches” and “heartless ” today were once too good like your girl.
She will Cry and do crazy things to get back the attention you gave her initially.And you will act like you do not care ,things will turn worse.She is then start finding interest in things that can heal her wound.The wound that your ignorance gave her.She wil love you but once that wound is heal by some other
Source she will move on for sure.
She bare to love you silently ,see you falling for someone else but once she has found the way of healing her wound without you she will move on.
May be that is when you may understans.Before it is too late guys understand her value prove that you were raised in the arms of a queen by tresting her as a queen.Trust me your treating her shows your upbringing.Caring for her showing it off to the world shows that you grew up seeing you father doing it for our mom.Trust me if she says she loves you she does.She can have guy friends but she will marry the one she can be proud of if she were his mom

Kasam: Our Almost National Food ,we all have tasted or will get to taste someday or the other

Next time You experience being praised for your skills and Grey matter show modesty.But if u suddenly see that you lift a load better than someone,or your cousins , putting on unnecessary weight ,and you effortlobsly look maintained!!! One question is Commin up for you be ready !
Yeah its ” AAKHIR KHATA KYA HAI?” ( Oh God! What do you eat man?)
The Answer is very simple! “Kasam”
Yes most of us eat Kasam.
Kasam is nothing but a “swear on me”
This comes in unique package from “Needless Emotion Courier Service” that excells in wrapping .It wraps “Kasam ” with a plastic bag made out of melodrama,tearing it introduces you to a brown wrapped cellotaped box made out of emotional blackmail .Tearing the tapes you get a airfilled pack made out of “stories of sacrifices” done for you. Tear it and the uniques “Kasam” comes up.
This Courier service currently received a “besto-bhushashan “from ‘ Indian Association of Stubborn irrational Moms-Wives-girlfriends and Sisters’
While “Association of ridiculous Husbands-dads-brothers and boyfriends ” have laid emphasis on the product Needless Emotion Courier delivers.They have recently lauched a brand of Whiskey and Cigar which named after the famous product “Kasam”
The telefilm production houses and big production houses are using this “Kasam” shamelessly without loyalty .So before a case is filed these production houses are thinking of buying “Kasam” a ” besto-Shree” and facilitated it in their up coming “Nautaki Show off Awards”.This news was lately confirmed by kamwali bai governed Jounalists association.
Ours is a country if unity in diversity ,when too many people are celebrating the glory of “Kasam” many are pretty unacquaited with what it is.Kasam is Swear given nothing else.In our country we often virtualise it in a form of food.And when we were supposed to say swear on me we say “kha meri kasam”
Dads of our Great Country often prohibit their children from using social network or simply playing game during exams,saying “Kha meri kasam aj se na facebook login karega, na game khelega”(swear on me! U would not login to facebook or play games from today)
Innocent teenagers  girls who are just friends with some guys are often alleged of a serious crime “DATING”
Dad the greats make them swear of not seeing that guys face ever after .”Khao apne papa ki kasam kabhi nahi miloge us nalayak se”
Trust me Daddyz the guy ur lil princess is dating may not be as
Nalayak as someone will force her to tie knot with.
Trust me daddy dears 90% guys of ur choice are marrying ur daughter because you are a rich man.If you are not then may be another “villainous daddy  made him Eat ‘Kasam’ a full plate served with emotion mashed chutney to marry your daughter.
Now we have the real jewels of the crown “Mom”
I know all of you are great no one can even think of the sacrufice you literally did for us.But i guess you people made comprimises and sacrifises because  you love us.And not because you wanted our lives to go on just the way you want it.I am nobody to question your right ,i am nobody to teach you
Your limit but i am a daughter of 21st century who wants a life of our choice.Trust me Mummaz we are not selfish we just need some more freedom and independence than you generation did.We know that our sons would need freedom even more than we need.As soon as you understand this problems and tentions will go back to the pavallion.I know you want us to have a good life .But trust me we can choose life partners ourselves yes we can end up choosing wrong people ,chances of being cheated are there but please let us face it.We value your suggestions but please let us face life.
Kasam is a kind of Food served to many guys if they choose a girl who does not match his mom’s idea a of a perfect daughter in law.Idea injecting courtesy off course goes to Indian television where mom in laws have rights to announced that daughter in law will live in the guest room alone.She is always a saree lady who spends all her time doing puja and impressing people for being a perfect Bahu.Trust me Mummas he is your ‘Raja beta’ it is true, she is also her daddys princess and mumma’s dolly if you can see someday being unbiast that ‘your Raja beta’ may not be the perfect match there are several others who are better then you will understand .Then you will know that the girl your “raja beta” chose may not be a symbol of “sundar sushil” indian lady but 100% capable of being a perfect wife of your son.
Trust me changing you point of view wont hurt.
Your biggest fault is you always look for qualities in girl for being a perfect ‘Bahu’ and not you son’s perfect wife.A girl who will make a 100% perfect wife will try her level best for being your ideal bahu.But if your chosen idea bahu does not end up being a perfect wife for your son ,sorry to say you kind of ruined you darling.son’s marital life.
Now comes our stoppers
GIRLFRIENDS
Can you imagine how you would have felt if he said stop buying make up! Stop hanging out with you lady friends!
Ridiculous!!
Is’nt it?
So when you are prohibiting him from drinking some pegs in a party or casually smoking believe me he too feels ridiculous
You people are super talented ,you can make him eat “Kasam” and make him swear on you that he will never do it .”Khao meri kasam kal se sharab aur cigerrete ko haat nahi lagaoge”
Damn!!!!!
If it is some health issue like drinking is showing adverse
Effect in his liver or immunity or smoking is
Giving him lung ailment .Ladies! You then have 100% licsense to make pakodas ,bhajjis and samosas out of ‘Kasam’ and force him to eat that.
But if he is and occational drinker and lowtime smoker and devoid of any adverse effect reported ever then making him swear is not a cool idea.
This Post is not to critisise those who make their loved ones swear on them.Swearing loved ones is serious practice across the world.All i want to say is we do not our precious diamond jewellery every day.We wear it on special occasions likewise Swear or Kasam should not be used without reason.Stop being
Judgemental Kasam in our country have various mythological
Stories please do not spoil it’s dignity.Mal use of kasam is what makes people say “Declare Kasam as National Food” .
If You can stop giving swears atleast use it occasionally.If you cannot step forward to stop people from cracking the “national food” joke about Kasam.Do one thing ,use it a bit less so that it remains a special cuisine Item not daily staple food like Dal-Chawal/Roti.

Kasam: Our Almost National Food ,we all have tasted or will get to taste someday or the other

Next time You experience being praised for your skills and Grey matter show modesty.But if u suddenly see that you lift a load better than someone,or your cousins , putting on unnecessary weight ,and you effortlobsly look maintained!!! One question is Commin up for you be ready !
Yeah its ” AAKHIR KHATA KYA HAI?” ( Oh God! What do you eat man?)
The Answer is very simple! “Kasam”
Yes most of us eat Kasam.
Kasam is nothing but a “swear on me”
This comes in unique package from “Needless Emotion Courier Service” that excells in wrapping .It wraps “Kasam ” with a plastic bag made out of melodrama,tearing it introduces you to a brown wrapped cellotaped box made out of emotional blackmail .Tearing the tapes you get a airfilled pack made out of “stories of sacrifices” done for you. Tear it and the uniques “Kasam” comes up.
This Courier service currently received a “besto-bhushashan “from ‘ Indian Association of Stubborn irrational Moms-Wives-girlfriends and Sisters’
While “Association of ridiculous Husbands-dads-brothers and boyfriends ” have laid emphasis on the product Needless Emotion Courier delivers.They have recently lauched a brand of Whiskey and Cigar which named after the famous product “Kasam”
The telefilm production houses and big production houses are using this “Kasam” shamelessly without loyalty .So before a case is filed these production houses are thinking of buying “Kasam” a ” besto-Shree” and facilitated it in their up coming “Nautaki Show off Awards”.This news was lately confirmed by kamwali bai governed Jounalists association.
Ours is a country if unity in diversity ,when too many people are celebrating the glory of “Kasam” many are pretty unacquaited with what it is.Kasam is Swear given nothing else.In our country we often virtualise it in a form of food.And when we were supposed to say swear on me we say “kha meri kasam”
Dads of our Great Country often prohibit their children from using social network or simply playing game during exams,saying “Kha meri kasam aj se na facebook login karega, na game khelega”(swear on me! U would not login to facebook or play games from today)
Innocent teenagers  girls who are just friends with some guys are often alleged of a serious crime “DATING”
Dad the greats make them swear of not seeing that guys face ever after .”Khao apne papa ki kasam kabhi nahi miloge us nalayak se”
Trust me Daddyz the guy ur lil princess is dating may not be as
Nalayak as someone will force her to tie knot with.
Trust me daddy dears 90% guys of ur choice are marrying ur daughter because you are a rich man.If you are not then may be another “villainous daddy  made him Eat ‘Kasam’ a full plate served with emotion mashed chutney to marry your daughter.
Now we have the real jewels of the crown “Mom”
I know all of you are great no one can even think of the sacrufice you literally did for us.But i guess you people made comprimises and sacrifises because  you love us.And not because you wanted our lives to go on just the way you want it.I am nobody to question your right ,i am nobody to teach you
Your limit but i am a daughter of 21st century who wants a life of our choice.Trust me Mummaz we are not selfish we just need some more freedom and independence than you generation did.We know that our sons would need freedom even more than we need.As soon as you understand this problems and tentions will go back to the pavallion.I know you want us to have a good life .But trust me we can choose life partners ourselves yes we can end up choosing wrong people ,chances of being cheated are there but please let us face it.We value your suggestions but please let us face life.
Kasam is a kind of Food served to many guys if they choose a girl who does not match his mom’s idea a of a perfect daughter in law.Idea injecting courtesy off course goes to Indian television where mom in laws have rights to announced that daughter in law will live in the guest room alone.She is always a saree lady who spends all her time doing puja and impressing people for being a perfect Bahu.Trust me Mummas he is your ‘Raja beta’ it is true, she is also her daddys princess and mumma’s dolly if you can see someday being unbiast that ‘your Raja beta’ may not be the perfect match there are several others who are better then you will understand .Then you will know that the girl your “raja beta” chose may not be a symbol of “sundar sushil” indian lady but 100% capable of being a perfect wife of your son.
Trust me changing you point of view wont hurt.
Your biggest fault is you always look for qualities in girl for being a perfect ‘Bahu’ and not you son’s perfect wife.A girl who will make a 100% perfect wife will try her level best for being your ideal bahu.But if your chosen idea bahu does not end up being a perfect wife for your son ,sorry to say you kind of ruined you darling.son’s marital life.
Now comes our stoppers
GIRLFRIENDS
Can you imagine how you would have felt if he said stop buying make up! Stop hanging out with you lady friends!
Ridiculous!!
Is’nt it?
So when you are prohibiting him from drinking some pegs in a party or casually smoking believe me he too feels ridiculous
You people are super talented ,you can make him eat “Kasam” and make him swear on you that he will never do it .”Khao meri kasam kal se sharab aur cigerrete ko haat nahi lagaoge”
Damn!!!!!
If it is some health issue like drinking is showing adverse
Effect in his liver or immunity or smoking is
Giving him lung ailment .Ladies! You then have 100% licsense to make pakodas ,bhajjis and samosas out of ‘Kasam’ and force him to eat that.
But if he is and occational drinker and lowtime smoker and devoid of any adverse effect reported ever then making him swear is not a cool idea.
This Post is not to critisise those who make their loved ones swear on them.Swearing loved ones is serious practice across the world.All i want to say is we do not our precious diamond jewellery every day.We wear it on special occasions likewise Swear or Kasam should not be used without reason.Stop being
Judgemental Kasam in our country have various mythological
Stories please do not spoil it’s dignity.Mal use of kasam is what makes people say “Declare Kasam as National Food” .
If You can stop giving swears atleast use it occasionally.If you cannot step forward to stop people from cracking the “national food” joke about Kasam.Do one thing ,use it a bit less so that it remains a special cuisine Item not daily staple food like Dal-Chawal/Roti.